These months have changed me

 

Where do I even start .. 

how can I start ? These months are nothing for me compared to what is happening to others ! 

Just in these months rules and laws have changed faster than you can blink your eyes .  I have been numb all these months and have been adding up my dreams and hopes … I am not sure if they are just fantasies now . 

The only words a person can even think of or say is thank god ! Thank god Iam alive ,thank god I have food,water ,clean air ,my pets,my house ,my internet …. 

All of these small things that I would write in my appreciation note-book to manifest would be the things Iam thankful for yet ashamed of.

It is weird because iam still motivated to write down what kind of content/videos/posts I want to make and upload on my social media yet Iam seeing the world I know change quickly .The new year is coming and the old Hannah would proudly show off her vision board to get motivated and write down how she would accomplish them .. 

all I can say is Iam ashamed that Iam thinking about a fantasy that Iam still wanting to see while the world around me is changing .